hmm realise my past few post about random emo stuff.. so i shall kinda change e mood hehe:D
but well im suppose to do my homework now but.. HECK! :D
lols really dunno how am i going to stay in 3a sia.. ima too slack already!
lols but nvm shall see how it goes hehe:D
hmm okay so today kinda went from maths class in e morning 8 till 10.
then i went for heartbeat practice.
hahas totally sucked at guitar.
im a failure.. yet again.
lols anyway went home at around 1..
slept and finished my zuowen at least.
hahas alright short post for today.
shall go find out how to do english essay! RARH
ohh and check out SNSD new song "run devil run" :D
last but not least i love you :D
Hmm.. I find myself to be quite "fake"..
i wanted this but yet i pretended i dont wanna it
i wish for this but yet i said i dont wanna this to happen.
what is wrong with me seh..
twisting everything around just to please everyone around me?
why cant i have the confidence and choose my own path?
damn it now im leading a life that is .. no.
right now.. my life is being led by others.
it is totally wrong man. like seriously OFF.
im supposed to be the ruler of my world.
yet im being thrown off my throne and have no power to veto to anything.
hais really find myself to be such a failure man.
Fail in choosing my paths,
Fail in choosing my life,
Fail in being myself.
I practically have no confidence to do a lot things.
and i hate that loser.
i believe im dragging alot of people down.
especially those that are very close to me.
Sorry if i did anything stupid or wrong.
I cant express myself well in real life.
so please understand my pain too alright.
i love you guys a lot but i am just unable to show it.
I know im quite a spastic person.
well im born with a spastic smile and facial expressions.
hmph this is all the doing of gods eh?
well Damn The Gods then.
i Really love you alot and i dont wish to part with you.
but i know it will happen sooner or later.
Reality hurts like hell.
we are like N and S poles..
you at 1 end and me at the other end.
Sigh.. heh i think that you dont even care right.
my feelings for you..
You have all e criteria of a perfect girl,
so good that i dont even think i deserve it.
its like me being with you is a big flaw to you.
you have many guys to choose from, dont even know why is it me.
But being with you is hardwork.
facing with all e guys that tries to hook up with you..
pretending i dont give a damn when my heart is bleeding..
real badly..
Jealously seriously kills.
i admit i am jealous most of the times but i merely concealed it.
just forcing a smile and diverge from the topic.
maybe i just have to get used to it..
im bleeding real badly..inside me..
well as long im able to see your smile
able to see that radiant you..
im already contented.. to the max :'D
Lets just see how long this will go..
i love you.
God damn it.
im not enjoying my life now.
everything is going haywire!
im careless man..
too careless..
have to be more careful next time.
now to solve the major probs tat im facing.
DAMN IT
FML.. for the 1st time.=.=
RARH but i must hang on man.
must not show that im so freakin weak.
to my juniors and fellow friends.
i will not give up man.
gonna find solution to my problem soon.
enough harm is done.
hey guys !
finally back from e camp already.
im dead tired alright but still..
hahas anyway i felt accomplished.
partly is because i managed to endure e whole camp
and also partly because the camp is a success!
well kind of....
but anyway i still wanna apologise to all campers and councillors.
the camp could had been a better one
if i organised all the games and stuff in greater detail.
i agree that the camp is messy and stuff..
well its cause of my shabby planning.
so i wanna take e opporunity to apologise to all campers.
If only i put in more effort in planning
if only i coorperated more with my fellow friends
if only i met up more with my friends for discussion..
i can gurantee that it will be better.
tsk tsk made damn lot of mistake in this camp too.
anyway to the game ICs,
sorry for all the scolding that we all took.
cause i did not bother double checking the plan and stuff..
overlooked some stuff..
resulting in the messy activities and ultimately scoldings.
sorry for stressing you guys out too man.
but i also wanna tell you guys that
i would have died if you guys are not there for me
you guys will always help me and tell me to relax etc
hahas i think if you guys did not help me,
i would have died due to stress overload. hahas:D
so once again good job guys!! hahas
although it is not that good but i believe that
we had already done our best,
and the camp is also quite successful:D
To game masters:
hey guys good job people:D
especially those in the amazing race
hahas im impressed that you guys
did a very very very good job!!
although there's some miscommunication here and there
but i still tink that overall,
it is job well done guys :D keep up e good work! hahas
To class ICs:
job well done too guys:D
hahas i dare to say all of you
managed to gel the class together
and that is the main purpose of the camp!
so you guys accomplished the goal of the camp
and even bonded with them.
hahas seriously good job good job :D
To understudies:
hahas guys we did it.
we managed to run the whole camp!
of course with e assistance of teachers
and the exco.
but i dare to say that a huge % of the camp
is our hardwork.
hahas we managed to plan and execute the activites
quite nicely :P
we helped each other out during the camp and it shows
the close friendship that we all shared.
and i think that is very very important!
i also like the way we all work together.. shouting our lungs out..
maintain order and helpin out each other even though
you are not suppose to do so.
hahas and i hope that e emergence of the exco
wont hurt or destroy our friendship!:D
lets just congratulate the upcoming exco
and keep that smile :D
so in summary.
councillors FTW:D :D
you guys had done well :P hehe
yoyo peeps what sup?!
tsk tsk december already.
time flies man.
sians haben touch my homework yet man.
shall do it SOON.
yeah soon.
very soon.
seriously very soon..
serious.
LOLs anyway had sport leader today
quite... dumb actually.
lols we sit in a classroom and think of many dance steps.
oh well.
then go cp eat with hazik danston and vincent.
lols eat kfc liao then go play bball near schl.
woohoo *toooot* is mine HAZIK!!
you have none left! hahahas :D
lols what ever. then i went home early cause dad bdae.
lols alright peeps gtg.
see ya real soon
SOON arh.
i said SOON
and my SOON is really SOON.
seriously soon bye :D
Phew hey guys whats up?
i had just finished relinking and rearranging e links!
muahahas.
But i may have not include you in e link la.
so if you wanna me to link you,
just tag me yeah :D
alrights nothing much now. bye :D
zz.. just wad a super light dinner( well to me la)
super not full leh. shall go supper later :D(i smell mc chicken!)
lols anyway it had been a hectic day.
band-ed for like 8-5?!
thats 9 hours man. and totally look weird in contacts =.=
was dam tired when i band finally ended.
slept e moment i reached home for about from 6-9.lols
Anyway yesterday's class bbq was one of e toughest bbq i ever had!
setting and maintaining the fire was like a super tough feat la.
thanks to e several waves of rains lo. =.=
was totally soaked la and transformed from man in white to man in black=.=
wore a white shirt and pants which literally changed into black due to charcoals.
but it was quite successful man. at least we are able to cook our food!!
hehe but e smoke choked me like hell man. zzz
yeah we had water bomb but was kinda dumb lols.
didnt kena so much la but still kena some=.=
and my aiming shoot bird also. aarghhh!
lols nvm=.= shall end my post here.
good bye everybody! BOOMZ
